Everyday.

Everyday gets harder and harder...
I stay up later and later thinking of you...
I hear the sounds of a car bumping loud music...
I wonder if maybe it's you, listening to music while you drown out the world...
I hear the creaks in my floor...
Maybe it's you stepping back into my life again...
I look at the stars and wonder if maybe you're staring too...
Thinking of how they will hold all of the memories we won't keep...
to spare us from this unbearable pain, or rather my unbearable pain...
I close my eyes and picture your face... 
The way you closed your eyes to get a little rest...
When in reality you were closing them so I would close mine too...
And once I'd close mine you'd open yours and stare at my face...
I'd catch you...
Once...
Twice...
Five times... Blushing and hiding my face...
You'd roll your eyes and move my hands away...
Eventually you take a picture of me...
How rude I don't even look pretty, I'd think.
Only in your eyes I might've been beautiful...
But i would never know...
Whether your being annoyingly loud in your car...
Whether you want back into my life...
Whether you're whispering unbearable, heartbreaking truths to the stars...
Or whether you are hurting the same as me...
I only know that if you are you'd be drowning your thoughts with alcohol and weed.
Trying to forget the way I smiled,
The way I laughed,
The way my eyes shined when I see you,
The way I blushed,
But you'd be trying to forget the tears I've spilt over for you.
The moment we talked I was crying...
The moment we ended my eyes blurred with tears, tears that would fall only seconds later...
You'd be trying to forget that you hurt me....
That you cut me...
But what you don't know is the one thing I've joked about will be engraved on me someday...
For a © will not stand for something I alone own...
It will stand for the person who will own my heart forever...
And some day you may know...
And some day you will forget...
But as for I...
I will be engraved with that tiny ©, so I will know...

Love can be found. 

 ~A.G.G