Aria

Everyday.

Everyday gets harder and harder...
I stay up later and later thinking of you...
I hear the sounds of a car bumping loud music...
I wonder if maybe it's you, listening to music while you drown out the world...
I hear the creaks in my floor...
Maybe it's you stepping back into my life again...
I look at the stars and wonder if maybe you're staring too...
Thinking of how they will hold all of the memories we won't keep...
to spare us from this unbearable pain, or rather my unbearable pain...
I close my eyes and picture your face...
The way you closed your eyes to get a little rest...
When in reality you were closing them so I would close mine too...
And once I'd close mine you'd open yours and stare at my face...
I'd catch you...
Once...
Twice...
Five times... Blushing and hiding my face...
You'd roll your eyes and move my hands away...
Eventually you take a picture of me...
How rude I don't even look pretty, I'd think.
Only in your eyes I might've been beautiful...
But i would never know...
Whether your being annoyingly loud in your car...
Whether you want back into my life...
Whether you're whispering unbearable, heartbreaking truths to the stars...
Or whether you are hurting the same as me...
I only know that if you are you'd be drowning your thoughts with alcohol and weed.
Trying to forget the way I smiled,
The way I laughed,
The way my eyes shined when I see you,
The way I blushed,
But you'd be trying to forget the tears I've spilt over for you.
The moment we talked I was crying...
The moment we ended my eyes blurred with tears, tears that would fall only seconds later...
You'd be trying to forget that you hurt me....
That you cut me...
But what you don't know is the one thing I've joked about will be engraved on me someday...
For a © will not stand for something I alone own...
It will stand for the person who will own my heart forever...
And some day you may know...
And some day you will forget...
But as for I...
I will be engraved with that tiny ©, so I will know...

Love can be found.

~A.G.G

The Unknown

It is believed that when you toss and turn at night someone is thinking of you.

That you are alive in someone's mind.

If that is true I've been in someones mind a lot lately.

Even though my bed is calling my name, my covers are wrapping me hostage, and my eyes are draping over like a curtain, I can't seem to sleep.

My mind always wanders to one person, you.

And I wonder, are you thinking of me at this moment too?

But yet I will never know.

And I can add that to my list.

The list of the unknown.

Number 1: I will never know why the sun rises in the morning

2: nor why the moon rises at night

3: I will never know why showers relax me

4: I will never understand Shakespeare nor why he created such a posh language.

5: I will never know why pandas are the cutest animals.

6: I will never know why I love the ocean.

7: I will never understand why we can have writers block

8: I will never know the reason behind death.

9: nor the reason for living

And

10: I will never know the reason for our departure.

We live in a world of heartbreak and despair.

A world where people can despise someone else and love so deeply.

I've never lived in a box, I viewed everything as I grew.

I understand some of the things that go on, yet I could never understand you.

For you were a mystery that couldn't be solved.

You are my unknown.

So please...

I need you to know what I don't, teach me.

Love me.

But most of all....

Forget me.

Sincerely yours,

The Past

~A.G.G

Would You...

Would you leave it all behind?Would you forget it all?

Would you consider this?

Would you trust?

Would you forgive

Would you live for tomorrow instead of today?

Would you consider tomorrow to be worth it if I stayed?

Would you believe me if I told you "you can rust me"?

Would you see I'm not out to hurt you?

Would you see the difference between me and them?

Could you see yourself from my point of view?

Would you believe me if I told you "I still love you"?

Will you ever believe?

Will you ever see?

Our love was the way I always imagined it would never be...

Yet it was the very thing that kept me sane in an unexplainable, frustrating way...

Be my sanity?

~A.G.G.

IT IS YOU

It was you...

who talked first

It was you...

who smiled first

It was you...

who helped first

It was you...

who was so defensive

BUT...

It was I...

who laughed first

It was I...

who took first

It was I...

who fell first

YET...

You...

made me feel safe

You...

made me feel happy

You...

took my flaws

You...

gave me hope

EXCEPT...

I...

couldn't believe

I...

couldn't breath

I...

was never enough

I...

would stick to my flaws

AND...

I...

will be forever sorry

BUT...

It is you...

who will always remain someone I love...

~A.G.G.

"Remember"

Remember...

...the times we shared

Remember...

...the times we cared

Remember...

...the times we cried

Remember...

...the hurt we bared

Remember...

...the laughs we shared

Remember...

...the past we cease

Remember...

...I loved you

Remember...

...you forever lay in my heart

~A.G.G.

"You.. Me... We...."

Hurt...

That's what I am...

Angry...

Is what you were...

Love...

Is the thought I had...

Lust...

Is the thought you had...

Broken...

Is what we had...

Lost...

Is where you stand...

Confused...

Is where I stand...

Forbidden...

Is where we stand

~A.G.G.

Waiting Game

"I don't wanna say that love is a waiting game..."

The pure beauty behind this song, I fell for a guy that let me lean on his shoulder

but I was to scared that it would make him hurt, well feel sympathy for me.

"Baby I'm thinking it over, what if the way we started made it something cursed from the start"

Cursed...

We were cursed from the start...

"What if it only gets colder, would you still wrap me up and tell me that you think this was smart"